Lack of Will Power?

Oops. Yesterday I did very well... until the drive home. I literally fast-tracked it to Rally's where I got a big Buford (less the bun) and chili cheese fries. A fat girl has her moments ok?! I kept telling myself at least I didn't eat the bun. And I foregone several fries.

I was of course very mad at myself this morning when the scale didn't budge, but I have to be more vigilant. If the scale had gone down, I admit, I would be more likely to repeat this offense!

So, today, I have done amazing!

Breakfast

• 1 TBSP of coconut oil and 1,000 mg of Niacin (flush free) --- trying it based upon a recommendation by a Physicians' Assistant.
• Protein Shake

Mid-morning Snack

• 1 Tomato
• 1 Piece of Provolone Cheese

Lunch

• Veggie Burger with swiss, red onion, lettuce, tomato, and 5 pickle slices
• 1 packet of mustard
• 1 packet of mayo
• 10 cherry tomatoes

Mid-afternoon Snack

• 1 Tomato
• Peanuts

Dinner

• Undetermined, but I promise it won't be bad!

More to report tomorrow. I am expecting to attend a concert this evening, so the goal is some high quality aqua and a salad of some sort. If I get away with chicken or fish that is baked or grilled, I will also be pleased.

Oops, so not an everyday post - Project BMI update

Down to 190.7.

I've been eating every three to four hours, but I haven't eliminated all processed sugars and grains like I intended to... my boss had a going away party and the new boss had a welcome party, and let's just say the Alligator Coffee Cake was speaking to me with it's soft and inviting voice. Yeah, I'm not proud of it, but I'm going to keep plugging along.

Last night, I did the elliptical machine for 30 minutes, level 1, and completed 2.26 miles then I worked on arms. Gotta get rid of those bingo wings!

Tonight, I am going to try and do Day 1 of P90X. I can do this. Can I get some support here?

Back on the Wagon --- Project BMI in full swing!

From 2011 to 2012, I lost 120 lbs. I was a big girl! My lowest weight achieved was 169.

However, 2012 was supposed to be about maintenance, but I moved out of my home into an apartment, didn't feel comfortable in my new place, [insert other excuses], and now I am up to 193.

This is very frustrating, so I am committed to making the weight loss journey public again, so I can be held accountable for my food intake as well as my exercise plan. I want to get down to 135 lbs, so I have 58 lbs to lose.

I am going to do P90X as well as walk at least one hour a day [accumulated time]. Being diabetic, I am going to forego the following bad foods: 

• Soda, even diet --- only high quality H₂O and milk
• Bread, rice, and pasta --- unless rye bread or whole wheat items
• Candy, sugars, sweet stuff

This is how I lost weight last time, but since the move, I haven't had the drive or commitment to continue, so here I go. First report, later tonight!

Have you ever tried to make a pie?

Have you ever really tried to make a pie? It's not easy doing it from scratch. I give props to the bakers of the world, and this lady, well I'm no baker. Though I am up to the challenge.

My first experience making a pie from scratch did not go well. During preparation, I pegged the crust as the hardest component, but when I tried the finish product... Well let's just say the crust was edible. Haha.

So what have I resolved to do? For the time-being, I went and bought a store-made pie. It was quite tasty, but I still feel hollow inside like I am missing out on something. I therefore resolve to try an easier pie. I might start with a tried and true baking recipe that calls for some simple mixing first and one day, I will make a pie from scratch. I shall keep you posted.

I take this view with my life as well. I'm not about band-aid solutions, so buying the pie from the store is not going to cut it for me. I must start from the foundation, but this is very overwhelming! So what I have resolved to do? Try an easier route. No, I'm not going to buy a fix-it all solution because life really doesn't have an easy button. I think I will pick an issue and try simple solutions until I can one day go to the root of the issue and tackle it head on.

Because folks, life is not a store-bought pie. It's about trial and error, perfecting that perfect pie. And sometimes, being a newly inspired cook and long-time improver upon me, I need to step back, start small, and work my way to the high life.

Long Time Listener, First Time Caller

Being that it's my first post ever, I thought I would state my purpose for being here, virtually. But really, I don't have a concrete answer to this burning question. I feel a need to write, and someone I know suggested I use a blog rather than Facebook Notes since I have restricted those due to privacy issues.

So a little about myself, I'm on a drive to improve me. I have been divorced for over a year now, and recently ended a four-month relationship with a man I really liked. For reasons still very raw to me, I am choosing not to divulge those details, but every time I have a major life change, I take on a new hobby, and well I think blogging might be the one. Or the vehicle to express those hobbies.

What do I want to write about? I could write about:

• my awesome children, two of them to be exact
• recipes I have tried and tweaked
• upcycling, recycling, and DIY projects I have undertaken 
• goals, ambitions, dreams, and how in the h-e-double hockey sticks I propose to achieve them
• useless ramblings that meet no other defined category except to bitch

So there you have it. Another blog among the many with no real purpose except to be an outlet for personal growth tracking.